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Living in the moment feels great!

I've decided to start making things happen for myself and it's a fantastic feeling. It is amazing to me how I can easily be drawn into a woe is me mode when it comes to planning what I want. I've had plenty of times where I don't feel that I fit into a crowd or I don't have anyone asking to do things. And the sad thing I'm learning is that it is probably due to my own choices. Instead of choosing to feel bad I can take action and change my circumstance. If I don't want to change the circumstance then accepting it and moving forward feels so much better than just feeling bad for myself.

I've been busy the past few days. This isn't unusual because it's how I operate. I like to get out and do things a lot of the time. So last night when I had no plans I kept wondering what would happen. Nothing was changing and I felt that familiar woe's me creeping up. I decided to say no to it. I decided to be proactive and so I put it out there to the world via Facebook and amazingly enough, I found several offers on things that were going on around town that I could attend or join friends in doing. It just took me the part of making the effort and taking action rather than playing the victim.

I'm reminded of my epiphany that I need to choose my mood and this is no different. I need to choose to be active in my world if I want it to happen in any specific pattern. I simply need to make the choice to participate and not sit on the sidelines.

That being said, tonight I find myself home, alone. And it is good. I did have a moment of thinking of all the things going on out in the world that I'm not experiencing: Second Saturday, a party, friends, etc. And yet with no plans for the evening I decided that I was ok with that, and accepted what I had been handed by the world. The action was my choice not to be bitter or upset with my situation. I did in fact have a nice evening relaxing and just being alone.

Choice is indeed powerful. And I'm learning all the time how powerful it is. Just a sheer act of will can change so much in my life. I'm realizing that choice is something that I look for in other people because it is a powerful and attractive thing. Perhaps I need to practice taking action more in my life.