Laughter

So I've been gone from this blog for a few days but I'm back to being able to post again. The past weekend  was busy but really fantastic and I'm feeling great. Once again I was able to escape down to Disneyland and have a relaxing and fun time with friends. I went with one of my closest friends and it really made the trip that much better. She helps me to just laugh at things that occur around us and see the fun in life. Once I arived back at home I was able to be productive around my house in preparation for the work week. Finishing off the weekend I had a fantastic date. (I'm thinking it will lead on to more fantastic dates)Part of the date was spent watching Despicable Me and that just made me laugh and enjoy myself all the more. It's amazing how silly humor made for kids can be just as funny as an adult when with the right person.

I think the thing that struck me most this weekend is the amount of time I spent laughing. I find myself laughing often when I am with my friend that I traveled with. She and I seem to just relax into situations and see things with that childlike clarity. Stupid events tend to be met with hilarity. We laugh about things that are comical and about things that are unfortunate. Perhaps it is the fact that we both just take things as they come when we are together. I don't know that I've ever gotten angry around her or shared anger with her. In fact I can only name a couple of times that there were other emotions than that of joy. And even sadness is short lived. We laugh off whatever life throws in front of us.

Perhaps laughter is a little like silence. It is a state of mind and relaxation in which have to be totally comfortable to realize. I know that there is the concept of nervous laughter but that isn't truly laughing to me. It doesn't start in your stomach, filling your chest, crawling across your cheeks going deep into your eyes. It doesn't bring about the euphoria that goes along with a true laugh. It's these moments that I love. When laughing nothing else matters and I don't think that in that moment I'm thinking about anything else. I'm just laughing. I have to be totally at ease to let it in. I can't be worrying about how anyone else is seeing the situation. I think the best laughter comes when I just take things as they are and enjoy them and this frame of mind really is best reached when you are comfortable with those you are with.

Like silence, being able to settle in and let it surround you and open up your thoughts, laughter is best achieved with those that you connect with. As I'm getting older and looking over my relationships, both romantic and friendly, I notice that there are not many that I regularly laugh with. Perhaps being able to laugh with someone is a sign of a successful relationship. If a relationship is too forced to allow the laughter then maybe I'm not really connecting with that person. Why am I still trying to keep them close to people that I don't laugh with? Is it a hope that I will reach the point where I don't care so much what they think and can simply enjoy life with them? I know that my relationships are different with those who I regularly laugh with; they are stronger and healthier. And I find myself asking if I need more people to laugh with?

I think I'm already fortunate with the friends that can laugh with me about anything. Is it ok to be greedy and hope constantly for more of these treasures? I ask this and yet I'm still trying to discover one more that I can laugh with.