Two

I've now been posting for two months. I'm learning a lot about myself and it is very calming to sit and just reflect on how my life is going. I still resist writing on some days, believing that I have nothing to say. The irony is that those days that I don't want to write I end up writing the most.

It is a bit odd putting all of my mind's thoughts out for the world to see. I've had some of my close friends actually comment that it's odd to read my thoughts because they feel like they are invading my privacy. My response has been the same each time, I'm choosing to post and I've offered it up to many so they could see what I think. So read it if you like. I hope that it helps others to reflect as well, because I'm getting a lot out of it.

Being so open in the journal is a really strong reminder that I don't need to hide who I am. I don't need to try and be whatever other people expect (frequently I feel that I'm not at all what people believe). I can only be myself and people can take me or leave me. I know that it is an ongoing battle to truly live for myself, but I feel that I'm one step closer through these self revelations. Putting all of this out there and hearing some people respond to the things I've said reminds me that we are all struggling to figure out this crazy thing called life. I am reminded that I should not assume I understand what someone else is thinking or feeling because I don't know what is going on in their head. Maybe it's just that I/we forget to have the important conversations anymore. I get so caught up in the day to day that I forget to stop and smell the roses. I forget to ask people what flower they like best or what their best memory is from growing up.

So let's see where month three leads me. I'm sure it will be enlightening.