Fleeting, Beating, Heat.

Day two of the heatwave. Tonight I find myself tired and without focus. Part of it I'm sure is that I was running around all day in and out of buildings. The outside part wore me down as the 100+ heat surged around me. I must say that I don't care for the heat that much. Today I could feel it pressing on me as if it had it's own weight and will. It was no longer the sun heating me from above, nor the pavement coming up from beneath my feet. Instead it was like I was surrounded by it and it was pushing through my skin. I literally felt as though I was battling against it when I was outside. So very uncomfortable and draining. I'm not even sure why it's draining since I'm no more active in the heat... in fact i'm less so. Perhaps it's the fighting against it pushing into my world. Perhaps it's just my body working hard to cool me during the assault. Regardless, a day like today makes me feel spent. As I have said to many people, "The trouble with the heat is that you can only take off so many things before you are naked and still uncomfortably hot."

Days like today make me think about moving somewhere that the heat isn't in the hundreds. I've always thought that one day I would move north into Oregon. Ok, truth be told I just have always been attracted to the northwest. The green of the trees and crispness of the air makes me feel at home. I know that many people are put off by the clouds and the cold but they are part of what I find so attractive. Perhaps it is a place that I need to continue to look at for the future. It seems difficult to pull up roots though... for now I'm happy in my house. And tomorrow the heat will drop. And the next day it will be as if the heat had never happened. Funny how much it is weighing on me now.