So the question has become one that is haunting me. Do I not have a lot of respect for myself? I know that cleaning is a sort of silly thing to realize that about but when I did think of it why don't I keep things clean for me? Don't I deserve to see it that way? I think this also a reflection on my weight. What is it I want? I think that if I want to be healthier and at a better weight that I should start by looking at myself. Perhaps the respect I need to show myself is in these little niceties. I deserve them too!
That being said I think that in my past weight loss journeys I've always fallen into some rituals of making myself dinners that were more extravagant than most would consider doing for themselves. I would even do presentation on the plate. Looking back I think that part of the satisfaction was that I was doing it for me because it was just as nice for me as having doing it for someone else. In fact in some ways it was better because the only person that could give me praise for it was myself. Something that I don't do often enough. Why is it that other's opinions seem more important than our own? And now we are back to respect.
As a way of focusing on respect I am going to do something each day for the next week to respect myself and post it at the end. (Funny how I seem to have started giving myself assignments right off the bat). So I close with my reviews of the day...
Respect: I cleaned the toilet and bathroom (I know, gross right?)
Niceties: Two people waited for me so that I could cross the road today, my friend took my finished dinner plate for me.
No excercise other than walking at work
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