Crow

So I'm once again feeling compelled to write a bit in a journal and in today's day and age where better to do it than on the internet. Sure it's a little weird but there's something about the whole world being able to join the conversation that is intriguing. I'm also thinking that perhaps it will keep me going more. I've kept journals in the past but never for very long. I don't know why, perhaps I get tired of them, or they become a chore, or perhaps like so many other things it's just tough to do things that are good for you. As I was thinking about journaling today I looked for something to write in and discovered one of my old attempts. I was shocked really because I kept the journal for an entire two months. I'm not sure why I stopped but I've decided that this time I'm going to set a goal of keeping this journal for 3 months. Perhaps by then it will be a habit. Who knows.

So what is going on in my life that has me starting a journal? I've started working on my weight again and I think that this is a large portion of it. My weight has always been an issue for me. It's something I battle and I've done well on a couple of occasions with it. The best was actually as I was rediscovering myself through a floundering relationship. So once again as I'm tackling the weight I'm also finding myself looking inward. I guess it's perhaps part of the journey. I was actually encouraged to do this by my Weight Watchers meeting leader. He made the excellent point that in order to truly succeed in the weight loss we need to figure out what we are TRULY "hungry for". The thought resonates with me since I think that I am looking or wanting something that I've not figured out yet. So again, I think this journal will be a help for that.

Today was my first day back to work for the new school year. I'm going into it with a positive attitude. Actually, I will admit that a couple of times today I was consciously avoiding complaining about it and trying to look at the bright side of it. I was productive and around many nice people. I need to return to the Life is Good mentality that kept me going strong for so long. I like being happy and I can create that if I want to. So here's to looking for the bright side and not complaining about things.

The subject is in reference to a piece I was listening to while running today from the soundtrack of How to Make an American Quilt. The scene in the movie is about a woman who is following a sign, the crow, and knowing that life will lead her on if she trusts it. I feel like this is where I am.

To close I think I'm going to briefly mention the high points of the day...

While running a couple moved over so that I could go by easily..such a simple and nice gesture.

I ran and walked 3 laps at the park.